The shrillest highs and lowest lows - beyond the door there's peace and sure and i know they'll be no more tears in heaven

i'm listening to cold war kids. hospital beds to be exact.
i left my psych book at school which really really sucks because i've missed two homework assignments this semester and i promised my teacher that i'd never miss another one again.
i suppose i could do it in first block but my teacher always flips out when i do that. hahaha shut up fenn i'm acing your class so chill.
i wish i could see my spine. i think it would look cool. it feels cool. god i sound psychoooo!
my phone has low battery. surprise surprise.
hospital beds is over. all my loving by the beatles is on now. ehh i'm not in the mood for it.
oooohhh carress me down by sublime. this song is so silly.
i made a playlist titled tgs which stands for the good shit. its all songs that i never get sick of.
my hands are freeeeezing.
carress me down is over. general by dispatch. i know all the words to this.
i wore makeup today. strange right. yeah i know weird for me too. my eyelashes touch my glasses when i blink.
i just cracked all my knuckles, my neck, my back and my toes.
probably one of my most favvvvvvorite things in the world is when people say my name. i love it. when people say something and then personalize it. you could say "hi how are you?" and you could say "hi how are you mary?" and the second one would just make my day.
tears in heaven is on. this is the most beautiful song i will ever hear.
i'm sitting in the most bizzare way. i'm so compact.
i want to watch that 70's show. it took me so long to get the 7 just then.
i went to the hypnotist show with evaline mariah and carla tonight. so funny.
i got extra cred for psych too.
be still my heart by postal service is on now. aww this song is so sweet.

OH MY GOD. i've been thinking this for so long and its hilarious.
i identify so well with britney spears lyrics. its so funny. look.
ok first of all the entire song womanizer relates to kicka clearly.
(by the way we hang me up to dry by cold war kids is on. shuffle. still by matt nathanson now, yesss)
"i'm not that innocent" HAH! me right?
"if there is nothing missing in my life then why do these tears come at night?" very me.
uhh thats all i can come up with right now but still. funny.

i'm skipping to my favorite part of this song when he says:
"still can see your eyes like diamonds they're diamonds
memories are strong enough so come on and drive me wild"
now goo goo dolls is on. i won't tell no one your name.
next.
collie man by slightly stoopid. which i love. which is my myspace song.
ok. next.
blue eyes by carey brothers. sorry. next
never knew by jack johnson. love it. not in the mood.
shuffffffle.
brand new day by tim myers. i listen to this song every morning when i get ready. its so happy!
i hate to be so restless.
to think people actually read through all of this stuff. WOW. i wish i was more interesting so i could really give people something to read about hahah. sorry! all i have is my thoughts and what i'm doing.
wonderwall is on. this song reminds me of so much. v's and when we all sang it together. that was perfect. but it reminds me of art 3 now because my entire table sings it at random moments in class.
next song is unaware by midway state. this song is so sad.
this song is making me think..

i try. i really do. i try so hard. i care a lot a lot a lot. not so much that i'm afraid to be myself or that i'd change myself to make people like me. all i do is be exactly who i am and pray people like it. i want people to like me, i want a lot of friends, i want people to want to talk to me and i want people to want to be around me. it seems like i've achieved this. i'm not saying i don't have that because it seems that i do. but i just have noticed how much i just want to feel thought of. because i think about people so much. if you're reading this now, i'm thinking of you. trust me i KNOW the people who read this. even if you think i don't know, i really do know. so just so you know that i know and now we both know. i'm thinking of you (jack's mannequinn, skip. neutral milk hotel, skip. dispatch, skip. daphne loves derby, i'll stay).

i'm really happy. you know what. i'm going to try and narrow all my feelings down to one and just sum it all up. i'll aspirate everything else and just make the word i'm feeling happy.
k next song. vannessa carlton, then dmb, skip and skip. oasis then timbaland hahaha. i wouldnt mind a little the way i are remix.
this song reminds me of varsity last year.
ohhh i miss cheerleading.
knext.
aww our house by crosby stills and nash.
i'll probably get made fun of for loving this song because only old people and me and kelsey like this song.
i plan on texting till my phone dies.
i have to shower, write an english paper. its a short one though so no big deal.
first day of my life by bright eyes. love bright eyes.
i finally downloaded all the music i needed to download.
got all my biggie. yesss.
here is what i'm going to do in full detail for the next 24 hours:
type everything that comes into my mind.
shower.
blow dry/straighten my hair.
write my english paper.
pick out an outfit for tomorrow.
(going away to college by blink 182 now)
get into bed.
text.
fall asleep.
wake up.
text back whoever texted me if there should be a text on my phone which there usually is.
get out of bed.
brush my teeth.
come into my room.
change the song on my ipod.
sit down in front on my mirror.
do my hair.
get dressed.
text evaline and kaity and tell them i'm coming.
force pat to hustle up.
get into my car.
turn the heat on.
find a good cd.
pick up kaity.
pick up evaline.
(when i grow up by pussy cat dolls. my secret infatuation)
get to school.
go to ev's locker with her.
see friends.
go to english.
take creepy pictures with brianna and send creepy texts.
see friends between class.
talk about the hypnotist in psych.
see friends between class.
go to lunch.
gossip with vanessa, kels, tiggs, amanda, jen, liz, and catherine.
go to art 3, the best class of the day.
laugh till i can't breathe.
put together art portfolios.
(landslide is on now. i'm going to cry. no doubt about it)
see friends between class.
go to french.
pep rally or "rolling rally" whatever south is trying to do to be unique.
see friends after school.
bring people home.
go home.
get ready for work.
go to work.
(had to change landslide. i didn't want to cry. now its girl by the beatles)
work with kathy.
text.
come home.
change clothes.
go out?

K MARY NO ONE CARES WHAT YOU'RE DOING FOR THE NEXT 24 HOURS!
oh my god hahahaha.
k i'm done. this was such a waste of time!